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DEAL WITH IT~!
one by one.....i see them just either distanced or slipping away....one
by one i see us fading....why must it be like this? why can't things be
like before? why do i PHYSICALLY see our friendship going down the
drain.....last time we talked.....fck~ it wasn't even a talk! we use to
be so much closer.....now....it's just like i really don't you
anymore....it seems like we are just strangers now.....why is it
everytime you get so close with someone....some how...they exit your
life? somehow...it all just ends with something stupid? it's not the
first time.....nor is it the last that i know....
do you fcking consider this a convo?
"hi"
"hi"
"dim ar?"
"mo ar"
YO FCK I DO THAT WITH PEOPLE DOWN THE HALL......DIU EVEN I FEEL MORE CLOSE WITH THEM THAN YOU!
or do you consider not even saying a hi a convo? sign language i
presume? are you now not able to speak? fck i really thought our
friendship was something, fck man i thought....you weren't like the
others who just....slip away...i thought you were the ones.....who
cherish friendship....even when goes down the drain......we clogg it
back up....but now....i SEE it.....at first i only FELT it....and i
thought it may be wrong....but today....i SEE it.....fck man, you
didn't even say hi when i ATTEMPTED to....shit even the person with you
i hardly talk to waved hi....diu DIM AR?!
if this is what you wanted long ago then why must you do it now and not
before? suen lah...i gave up.....our friendship is
unsavable.....another waste of time.....another waste of memories and
laughs~ fck it it's over....had enough from this shiet~ goodbye have a
nice life~
~KayKay
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| on my spare at school.....ho moon so decided to update lah....fan jing
ho loi mo update...maybe i'll start again? ng g ar xD tai ha ngo lay n
lazy sin x)
yesterday hai vday lah <33 lala overall ho happy ^___^ Mel and me
were SUPPOSE to make love cookies but mo LOL cause i got lazyyy ^-^v we
ended up watching movie with the guys -_-"
think...think.....ho loi......then.......bam~! though there are so many
"holes" in our relation that we never healed....but it's ok....ngo
lum.....as long as we know whats in our hearts is already enough.....=)
i like the way we are now...as in the movie say "gau duc tai ching chor
ng ho waan" but i know after all we've went through...we've finally
stopped playing games......(yes i know we said that 3years ago...but
this time it's for reals) thank you for everythingg you done...thank
you for bringing me back that love and happiness..... =) [02.14.08] not
only hai vday...but hai....for us goh
NEW START~!!!! <333 i hope....it will only get better =)
recreating....more and happier memories leaving the past that hurt,
behind us.........I love you~! <3
~KayKay
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| ......wow......o.O ho ho ho ho LONG mo update lahh way too lazy =P but i am bored right now.....so i will update....
lately i don't know....but...ngoh hor yi wah.....very confused =/ i took stuff i was suppose to give you 3yrs ago ....i read the note i wrote you.....i realized...that what i thought may be the end of our friendship after the breakup will stay lost...but i guess i was wrong....we proved that if we only tried and not give up...then anything is possible to bring back....i still remember the words Leon taught me......"friendship is really important....you should cherish it no matter what happens you should keep it" till this day i understand what he finally meant....=) thank you i will always...and i mean ALWAYS remember those words......
i know....its been....3yrs....or a bit more since we broke.....i always thought we'll never be friends again....but now....we're close as ever....but still not as close as before....but it's ok.....sometimes your actions make me confused.....yet....could it mean something? all those "talks" we had.....make me second think of what we really are....i don't know lah....there are a lot of things i regret between you.....there's so many things...that in the end....was all a misunderstanding....i guess you mistaken me for what i really was....and i mistaken you for being that jerk...but it's ok...cause i rather keep what we have now....than what could have been.....or what may bring in the future....i know... no matter how things seem to be more....it's just going to stay that way.... but you know what hurts the most.....was being so close......i wished we could just start all over again never when we were never together and just be friends all the way.......2nd chances are if you give or not...and i know.....they don't exist in your life....but i know...that you know...it exist in mine....yet....you are still struggling....if you should give any..... i just don't want to lose you again....the way i lost you 3yrs ago.....
this song....explains exactly...how we are all along......
~What Hurts The Most~
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
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Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....
~KayKay
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| .....why does fate like to play with me?.....3.5yrs lah.....ngo dung jor 3.5yrs....to be finally to able to prove that our friendship can be more...but why....so sudden this chance...just goes POOF...ng geen sai...? dim gai.....SHE comes along and just takes everything away? ngoh haam....lei wui kwan sum ngo....but lei ask ngoh why ngoh cry....ng tone...ngoh gong...."because of you" meh? mo sor lah...you know...i rather wut ju hai sum than to ever tell you...i tried telling you 2yrs ago....that you're not only just my close friend...but back then you had her....and yet she was my friend...ng tone...ngo wui gum chaan yun...break off lei dey meh? ho lah...when you finally break....i let you breathe....but....not long after you took your breath....mo duen duen...SHE comes along? what is this? why does my 6th sense have to be right? why do i have to find out? why....is it RIGHT INFRONT OF MY FACE?! ngo jui dislike goh girl.....took away that chance.....are you telling me...i didn't take the step first? are you telling me...that if i told you...then it wouldn't be her? i'm so lost..why...why...do i always hold myself back.....why did i have to hold myself back...? what happened to January 2006? was that really just where it left off at? is this where we end? we have no ending? does this mean our fate...just ends?.....why....when you never hurt me....this is the thing that you did that hurts me the most? where did i go? was..our past...just a past....have you forgotten? all those times you held me when i was crying after each guy who hurt me...everytime i was picked on..you'll stand up for me.....everytime i went missing....you went to find me....everytime you didn't see me...you told me you miss me....now?....you don't even miss me.....but i miss you.....</3
~KayKay
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| wah....5months mo update lah....a lot of things happened....ngoh lum....ngo gong ng sai ga lah.....sometimes....letting go is easier than to not let go....i believe....a lot of you been rejected and cried over love cause it's just not meant to be right? "we can never be together....i'm just another typical guy" that excuse have you ever heard? i know i did...but to you they aren't just "typical".....well...this song i love it so much right now....i'm sure a lot of you can relate to it.....
We Can Never Be Together-Logo
Look.. secrets..
Secrets are surprise disguise lies that don't appear now but.. it will appear later
between me and you girl..
We can never be together (you and i) No matter how hard we try (uh huh) we can never be together
no
need to cry (this is just a dream..) wipe away the tears (things will
never be what it seems) from the corner of your eye i'm nobody special
baby just another typical guy
-Chorus x2-
We can never be together
No matter how hard we try
We can never be together. no need to cry
Wipe away the tears from the corner of your eyes
I'm nobody special baby just another typical guy
It's a dream living in black and white
Well when i see you're here
On open light
tell me why i'm not satisfied
my heart feels like it just died
wondering what it would be like if you and i came together tonight
at this moment in this life time, show me a common sent
revealing your presences, answers to upcome to my newest questions
your shadows shows me plenty of clues
i'm tryna reach you but i can't touch you
can you feel what i feel?
i hate imagining so show me that your real
if you do then give me a sign
and heal this lover that blurry blinds my vision of pain and sorrow i almost gave in
but somethings always telling me to wake up and try tomorrow
no matter how much it hurts we can't be together
i'm not soft we're not a steel so it's forever you and i can never be together
so far in the back of my mind still tryna search and find us that go on
and press rewind
-Chorus 2x-
We can never be Together
No matter how hard we try
we can never be together. no need to cry
wipe away the tears from the corner of your eye
i'm nobody special baby just another typical guy
we can never be together you can say forever
it's
just an imagination through all of my situations f**king with hoes
stuck in indentation through all the trouble i go through
you setting me free, the adrenalin rushing at it's maximum speed
trouble and worries appear around you and me
understanding that, that is the reason why we cannot be
your patience is magnificence, don't take me wrong
still it's something you and i would kinda take down look,
the reason why i don't want you involved
is there enough problems and questions for you and i to solve?
you can say i'm selfish, ignorant and that i don't care
gotta understand i took your pain away from your own fears
putting you through this would shatter your hope and dreams
you just don't see it right now till it hits your own scene
believe me i care
it's just that this world is all about survival dealing with denial
it's our own personal issue and trial
Chorus 2x
We can never be Together
No matter how hard we try
we can never be together. no need to cry
wipe away the tears from the corner of your eye
i'm nobody special baby just another typical guy
Only in deep down dreams i feel your face
as i stare off into the lost open space
or ratherly pounds of thousands pace
concentration gets hard when i'm at work
mixed up between dreams and reality, yes it hurts
i find myself hiding just so i can feel ya
true love, i never achieve it
so loneliness still attached to my everyday instinct
so many new faces dashing through
been searching forever just tryna find the real you
ah, imagine you and i at that place, that place that separates pain away from peace
in the country field we dash through
just
,you and i as we join hands and hands spread your wings and sooth with
me to another land over the ocean as we freeze through the breeze
these memories will not be put to rest
learn to move on and live your life at it's best
forward towards another day
waking up stunned again damnn, i'm just dreaming away...
Chorus 3x
We can never be Together
No matter how hard we try
we can never be together. no need to cry
wipe away the tears from the corner of your eye
i'm nobody special baby just another typical guy
yeah..
~KayKay
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